There I was, attempting to get a teaching job that I could have passion for, and in taking advantage of Dubya’s program, I went back to school to get an edge as “highly qualified” in science. I just needed a few more credits and went back to the local junior college for some geology, something that I always loved. My intellect has always enjoyed putting the pieces of observation of nature together. I was blessed with a wonderful inspiring teacher and delved into my studies with fascination.
It had been that I could look up at the Catalina Mountains from my home and sense the miracle of a God. When the classes ended, all I saw was the image of ten thousand feet of mass sliding off in one event, or classification of rock and…etc. I was feeling at a loss.
The ailment disappeared over years. I think that naturism, as well as time, helped my diverse perspectives return in a more comfortable harmony with each other.
We all have thousands of different personalities and perspectives running around when we look at ourselves honestly; any may come to the fore at a given moment. It is good to sit back and enjoy the ride, observe and accept. Then, within and without, it is all good and things change.
Hoboy, this will sound wild. The last few years, I have focused more on unlearning. The state of not seeing the past, or the evolution, the why, or the how, is what I seek. When I'm not seeing the saguaro as a saguaro, nor green, nor plant, nor any other association, I am just being, just awareness, and there is then more in the nothingness. Naked is not naked, just more awareness, as it is. There is only a moment, and time no longer exists. There is breath and anywhere awareness takes me. I am simply that which watches. Mind and thought are not in the fore, but stashed away in insignificance.
This state is where nature and life reside. The act of simply walking bare all over in nature is in sync with that. Each step takes care of itself, a seemingly simple matter, under the radar in the usual, but when the effects of intellect dissipate, it becomes amazing and what may be called gratitude spontaneously flows. It is as if the first step taken as a child.
Jbee