When younger, I strove to amass lots of money to buy my freedom, to position me. In many ways, it created dependence on the buck, fear of losing the gain, a sense of power from what I did to protect the wealth. I was raised to believe that measures had to be taken and that the dominate natural human trait is a dog eat dog society. I was a warrior making his way through a world of fears and distrust.
All the while, I was experimenting, stripping away the silly social context that I inherited. I was trying to define what it was, what personal utopia that I was escaping to, what I would create for myself with that wealth. Then, the other Jbee was a child of the sixties, kind of a hippie, part of a social revolution.
The money corrupted as over indulgence. Hey, money is fun.
So, some things happened to me and now I'm finding each moment, nature, heart and a different sense of security. I surround myself with nice people and they are out there, because such attracts nice. I look at the better parts of others, not their potential flaws and treat them accordingly. The most genuine tend to have less fear, they can feel safe enough to get naked around others, as it is quite often. When I shake off the drapery, I shake off quite a bit more than those drapes. When I'm living without clothing, my focus is more away from the negatives, the driven, the fearful, the exploiting. It may sound like placing oneself in a dream world, but it actually pans out as more like living an alternative. It doesn't cost as much as my youthful Jbee would have conceived.
So, where do you want to live? What is authentic? How can we skirt around the dominate sickness, the unfair, and find and be some kind of light in the darkness? If you were lost in the darkness of a cave, wouldn't you search for light, gather it, appreciate it, and use it to find more to sustain it? The simple wonderful act of experiencing natural nudity is like a torch for me in the darkness. It helps to illuminate my life and promotes inner peace. Not just a trip report, but walking to the fridge and getting a glass of water, and experiencing that, too.
Hmmm, a naked philosopher now, too....
Jbee